My last long run. . .

by Mexigarian on September 5, 2014

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Well. It’s been a while, hasn’t it?

Last time I posted was waaaaaay back in July and I was still training for SFM. For those that follow me on Twitter and Instagram, you know that I did not run the marathon. Nor either of the halves.

Let’s rewind a bit. The last major run I completed was a long run of 14 miles on July 13. It started off in the cool morning. I fueled properly before hand, had my hydration pack and plenty of fuel to get me through. I did my usual warm up but as soon as I started running my right hamstring felt very odd and off. I figured I just needed to warm up some more and took it easy the first mile.

By mile 4 hamstring was still acting the fool and I was feeling ill. Cue dizziness and nausea. I had to slow down, walk and even had to sit down. I was pissed at my body, but forced myself to carry on. I got to my favorite trail and felt alright, but no where near perfect.  My hamstring got worse each mile and really yelled at me on downhills. The nausea and dizziness did not leave and several times I had to stop and sit as I fear the blackness on the edge of my vision would engulf me. Dramatic, yes, but I’ve fainted about 5 times in my life and that blackness scares me.


I slowly ran the last few miles home in pain and sick. I rested my legs, did gentle stretching a foam rolling but the hamstring was not having it. I made the decision on the trail that I wasn’t going to do the full. I had to cross my fingers that I could even do the half if my body felt up to it. Long story short, it didn’t. 

I attempted a short run the week of the marathon but body said hell to the f*ck no and I threw in the towel. Eric was proud of my decision, as he had been worried about me even considering racing when he knew of all the problems I had been having while running. He didn’t feel it to be safe for me and I agreed. As much as I wanted an SFM medal, it just wasn’t worth further injury or fainting on the course.

And I haven’t run since then.

Like, not a single mile.

My running shoes are collecting dust in the closet and my Bia still reads my last long run with an average pace nearing 14 minute mile. I haven’t bothered to change it no matter how much it irks me. I know 14mm isn’t bad at all. Just compared to where I had been and my overall SFM training, my pace just decided to get funky and go the opposite direction of where I was working for.

It’s not that I’ve been avoiding running. I got sick, been busy as all hell here at work, had/have art to get done, sick again and my lungs are taking the brunt force of this cold (I can barely walk one block or up one flight of stairs without wheezing and feeling dizzy). My coughing fits have lasted nearly 3 weeks. Lovely congestion of the chest in the morning and dry coughs at night. They’re especially bad when I talk, eat and in the evening for some reason.

But this post isn’t all about complaining (sorry if it seems that way), but I’m still looking at the 14 minute mile and wishing that I am even close to that right now. I’m telling you I will get back to the trails and getting scared by deer and rabbits and watching the sunrise over the hills. It’s just going to take me a while.

Since I am starting to feel better, coughing fits are slowly decreasing in duration of length, still annoying as hell though, I want to do at least one mile this weekend. Walk, run, whatever. I am going to get my butt back out the door and slowly (key word here) build my cardio back up.

I honestly miss being active. When I haven’t been sick, I managed to get to water aerobics, but it just isn’t the same. Being outdoors in the dirt (sans the heat) is zen for me. So getting back out there is a priority for me. I’ll listen to my body, take all the cues and keep it slow and just work up to it again and accept the pace I run because hell, at least I’ll be out there doing something I love.

It won’t be pretty, but it sure as hell will be worth it.

And here’s Lando begging for cantaloupe just because. . .

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Tell me . . . have you ever been sidelined from running due to illness, injury or too much going on in life?

Have you done any fun races recently?  Ran on any new trails?

Any local 14 minute milers out there want to run together? I promise to try and keep up.


Marathon training recaps and life changes. . .

by Mexigarian on July 7, 2014

Hey everyone! Happy Monday. Did you all survive the holiday weekend? We did. Barely. Eric and I got hit with a nasty case of stomach bug or food poisoning yesterday and we were both down for the count ALL day Sunday.


Lando kept us company.

I was supposed to do my last long run yesterday, 20-22 miles, and I woke up at 4am. Well, not because I was getting ready to run, except to the bathroom. My body was like ‘alert! alert!’. Between the dizziness and painful nausea, it was immediately apparent I was in no shape to run. I dragged myself to the living room and planted myself on the couch. Eric joined me several hours later and we spent the remainder of the day sprawled on the sofa, with intermittent trips to the bathroom and to the kitchen for edible sustenance.

Other than that, it was a good week. We celebrated our 4th anniversary on July 3rd and went over the hilly to Scotts Valley for 4th of July festivities with friends.


Running wise, I have whittled my training down to 3x a week, but my pace is still not up to par with what it had been.

Here’s what I have been up to since drop back several weeks ago:

June 14: 7.02 miles 1:13:25  10:27 pace   I only did ONE run in my drop back week.

June 16: 7.42 miles 1:12:26  9:45 pace (surprising pace! below is a gorgeous view I saw on my run)


June 19: 7.44 miles 1:16:19  10:15 pace

June 21: 14.04 miles 2:44:01 11:41 pace (I felt pretty bad the majority of run. I had to sit for 10 minutes just to catch my breath and mentally gather myself. if it wasn’t for this one lady I ended up following/rabbit on the trail, I would have called it quits and wouldn’t have pushed)


June 25: 8.65 miles 1:26:29  10:00 pace

June 27: 8.05 miles  1:21:05  10:04 pace

June 29: 18.19 miles 3:28:38 11:28 pace (I managed to run nonstop the first 8 or so miles and then crashed and burned afterwards. The hills didn’t help.)

July 2, 10.26 miles 1:56:16   11:20 pace

July 4: 9.01 miles 1:44:17   11:34 pace


Honestly, this cycle of training has gone not according to plan. I’ve slowed down a lot and have been dizzy and nauseous on a lot of my runs. It’s like my body is rejecting the idea of running. I have been fueling and hydrating but it’s literally a struggle each and every run. It’s like I’m just going through the motions. I’m incredibly frustrated.

It’s not like I don’t enjoy the runs. I do. I really enjoy being out on my trail, hearing the birds chirp, breathing fresh air and catching sight of friendly wildlife and getting dirt on my legs. I LOVE it. I’m just losing my love for the pavement. And the summer heat isn’t working for me either.

Mentally, I’m gone. I’m not in the zone and don’t even think I can mentally handle 26.2 miles at the end of the month. I was going to use my last long run as a determining factor and well I was on the couch for the entire day. :\ I think about the hills of SF and what I experienced on the training run on the course and just feel that my brain is too negative nancy right now to deal with it.

There are some other outside factors also weighing me. One is that my father is retiring this year and closing the business. We have been slowly sorting and throwing things away, but this month he really wants to clear things up out of the building and get it ready for auctioneers etc.  I have to move my entire art studio and clear out the old office space by the end of the month. Yes, this month.

I also have to find a new job. Art doesn’t pay my bills or mortgage and the stress of getting in the remainder of my training runs is already daunting.

Major life changes and major life decisions. I may have to back out of more running goals and wipe this year up as done.

Sorry for the bum post. My head has been a whirlwind of these thoughts for about 2 weeks now and I just needed to vent.

Feeling very overwhelmed.

Tell me . . .

Have you ever been so mentally out of training that you have considered dropping out of a race? What did you decide?

How do you deal with persistent negative thoughts on runs?

How was your fourth??


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